You would think it would never happen to you. You would say to yourself, I will never know someone who would die that way. I used to think that too, and now I must change my thoughts. I cried last night for near to an hour. My friends that attend Columbine High School shot at, me knowing 7 that are dead. It could never get any worse than this in someone's life you say? Well it just got worse. I mean I always thought it can't happen in my hometown, but it did. I know like 50 people that go to that school, some of which I have seen in the local newspapers, some which I have seen on CNN and I am in so much distress, I could barely even write my german test today. I broke down in History class today because I was thinking about it too much, and Katie and Janet came over to embrace me. Everyone asked me if I was doing okay today, even the kids I never known came to me and asked if I was okay. I shrugged it off like nothing but I know I should have told them the truth. I should have told them something like this: "I didn't want to come to school today. I don't even know why the hell i did come to school because I can't handle all these emotions!". But I pussied out and didn't say it. I guess I am one of those guys, but I hate being labeled that! I guess I did my good deed of the year today as well too, I gave an annoucement to the guys who do it at school to observe a moment of silence to remember those dead in Colorado. I wish I could do something, I tried calling everyone I could last night to keep updated, and it worked well, I am just so distraught that this might happen somewhere else. But I know for sure it will once upon a time, but for now I don't think I can do much.
