Today I recieved some of my midterm grades. I was suprised at some, especially history because I thought for sure I was going to fail, and I ended up getting a C, I was so proud, but still not on my achievement goal list to what I like, since I am used to A's and B's across the board. But I was proud of myself because it was a vast improvement from what I had been doing early in the term. Other than that I was upset at myself because I don't know what happened to my Smarts, seems that I have lost it all, but I guess it is all the things that have happened to me lately, with my parents getting separated, and divorced, and my sister committing suicide (well tried twice) in a month. It has been hard times lately, and I guess I am conforming slowly to the Canadian school system. so as i progress along I will inform myself to try just that little bit more to get better. Plus i do have my inspirations, well there are just a few. Namely Matt, my dad, and Brittany. If I didn't have them these past few months I wouldn't try anymore and I may have given up. But I still don't like the fact that I am failing something, especially English. How does someone who speaks, reads, and writes English, fail the class!?!? I will just leave that one up for decision because I can take a writer's course next year, or I could just finish out this year's English, but I am supposed to speak with my counsellor about it.
Then I got home and did my homework, and a storm hit town and I was glad for this. I went out and played in the rain for a while. I haven't done that in so long so I thought why not give it a go and have some fun. Then I went to the mall and handed in some film to get developed, and they are pictures of all my buddies in Colorado, and whatnot. And when I got back i talked to Kyle, and Brittany. And I was able to ramble on about EVERYTHING with Brittany today, I would say it was one of our better conversations. And for the second time at the end of the call I said I loved her, every other time I talked to her I would get embaressed, but I have overcome that now, and I am able to say it! And I have decided that I am going to talk to her on Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday from now on because I feel it is better that way, and we have more to talk about. Tomorrow is a late start for me at school as well and it doesn't start until 10, so there is a lil' more time to sleep in.
I also have to think about what i am doing at the end of this month because many people back in Colorado have invited me to go to Prom with them, and I would love to go, just that I need someone to buy the ticket for me since I am not there and it is a little hard for me to get it. But I still need to decide how things are going to get planned out, and who I would be going with. Many offers but still I haven't decided, I might go with my bestest girlfriend in the whole world Carolee, but i am not sure if she is headed there with her boyfriend already. i would love to take Brittany with me, but it is a lil' outta my way, so I guess I will have to go to her prom next year...So I ask you now Brittany...Can I go to your Prom with you next year Brittany Gaff? :)Well now that I have that over with I need to get back to my daily business, so hope to get back at this soon!
